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I Despise You

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This drawing is a nice illustration of my fic about America and Russia.

In this fic, they have sex way too soon and both try to find out what they want while starting to develop a relationship... it's very violent, more psychologically than physically, but it is. They're really not meant for each other and they know it.
Alfred is very much  in love with Ivan and the intensity of his feelings, all his good intentions that turn out to be the worst ideas, everything hurts. He doesn't know how to behave, and when Ivan hurts him, he thinks "revenge!" Which is not how you tame an agressively shy person.
Ivan is desperately lost and ashamed, very uncomfortable with the difference of age, culture and values, and the "gay" thing.
He's not gay, by the way, or at least he's convinced of that. And if he was, he would be a dominant. Only he's not.
Being fucked by a "teen" and loving it is the ultimate humiliation he really didn't need in his life. So he's cold, sarcastic, harsh.
To keep Alfred from taking even more from him than his pride. He refuses to let Alfred take his heart and get away with it.
They fight just as often as they fuck, if not more. They both hate that imperious feeling that draws them together despite their will.
They know it's real, and that they, in fact,  LOVE each other, but it's not such a good news. It's terrifying.
The thing about 'next mornings'... by BlumeShullmanAs if 'I know' was a tolerable answer. by BlumeShullman
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FrenchAlpina's avatar
C'est la Guerre Froide on dirait,Niet? =.=